Okay, now it's June just llike that! Got a new chair yesterday. Hope it works out. Back is hurting for sitting up too long long so I'm going to have to get up now. At I have my money now to worry about my car and my last bill. I hate how the damn internet feels like it needs to change things. Just leave it alone.


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Almost didn't update this month. I'm still alive though now part of the hospice program. It sucks, Maybe I'll talk about it someday. At grandma's now trying to wake up from much needed nap.


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Had the toliet fixed last week. It was more than just the flapper! Somehow, there was a crack inside the pipes so yay. Now if I can know for sure that my roof has been fixed, life can be a little less stressful ( Read more... )

OH MY GOD, NO MORE HOSPITAL STAYS!!!! Just came home from another five day stay at the hosiptal. My body just keeps falling apart. I want to update more, but I have to make a phone call. Argh.

Where to even begin? Sitting here, all by myself as usual. These past couple weeks have been beyond words. I just can't believe it. Brain tumors. Those damn headaches were caused by fucking brain tumors. I'm really am falling apart ( Read more... )

It's really weird when I dreamed about an anime that I've never seen before. Last night, I dreampt about the anime Free! and I have never seen a single episode. Just a bunch of pictures to let me know that it is about a bunch of guys that like to swim and could be yaoi. I actually slept for about 12 hours. Not straight since I have to go to ( Read more... )

So far, no rash. I don't know if that's a good thing or not considering I was told that you want to see a rash in order to know that the chemo is working. Maybe since it's only been a few days and I probably need a couple treatments for it to kick in. Making excuses since I was told it was suppose to work right away and gets worse as time goes on ( Read more... )

Getting ready to go the hospital to start a new chemo. The last resort chemo. Plus, find out CTscan results.

I hate my life.

And now I just lost my job thanks to my cancer.

Honestly, I don't even know why I bother anymore.

Fuck you all.

So yeah, I have two bone mets, with each one on a different vertebrae. I begin radiation treatment this coming Tuesday and will have it for ten days. Wish it will start Monday, but nooo, stupid holiday ( Read more... )